I think differently.
I equate experiences with action in my head. For example sometimes when I have sex I think of it as if I was boxing.
Sex is a battle, you’re both trying to out last and impress the other. You know one of you is going to go down first but you want to make sure you at least can prove yourself as a contender first. You pull out all your fanciest moves and hold nothing back. You give it your all and hope you impress.
Thats not something I create later. Thats my train of though while in the act.
Sometimes when I’m at a party or an EDM show I think I’m in a jungle, and I tailor my movements and actions as if I actually were.
Its strange but thats how I think.
When I think about my life, I have a tendency to think of it as if it were some grand quest. I dodge arrows and save princesses, but I never stop moving forward. I’m searching for something, hunting for the grail, but I have no idea where it is or how to find it.
I want a girlfriend, I really do. Its just really hard for me to find a girl I know I could stay with. I know the quest will always call me back, but I wish it didn’t.
Right now I’m thinking about it in terms of wanting to be dragged down to the bottom of the ocean by chains.
Its scary, but its also comforting in a way.
I just keep questing, moving from castle to castle, each new place is a new land to explore, each girl’s bed I sleep in is an Inn to stay in for the night. But it’s sadly never where I can stay for long.
I see glimpses, girls I think I can be with and be happy with. But they never stay, usually I can never even get close to them, let alone their beds. Its like some mystical hand intervenes and says;
I’m sorry Mario, but your princess is in another castle.
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